One more story....

But I don't' think I'll post it. I told Travis about it and he thought I shouldn't post it LOL I"ll see what you guys think.

This story takes place in the dark, when I thought of it the colors were black brown and red.

It's it the story of decisions. Burp the bubble is the main character, he needs to decide which way to go. While floating around in the darkness he meets Bert and Bart Bubble....They know which way they are going....

Do you think kids would get a kick out of that? Of course there would be a moral or some kind of lesson in there, but I think it would appeal to kids of a certain age.

How did I come up with this idea? Well some might consider this a bit TMI but one of the things I've been experiencing with this pregnancy has been gas mostly in the form of burps..At night right before I fall asleep...

Anyway, it's just an idea. Whadaya think?

The Adventures of Mr Tubbylove

Mr Tubbylove was minding his business one day when there was a knock at Mama Manda's door. She was surprised by the early knock and jumped out of bed to run to the door. "Who is it?" Mr Tubbylove heard Mama Manda say. "Maintenance" was the answer.

Mama Manda asked "could you come back in an hour?" as she was not yet dressed. "Well ma'am there's a leak from your place into the apartment below, and the ceiling has caved in," explained the maintenance man.

Mr Tubbylove picked up Mama Manda's psychic thought "Oh Shit!"
Then heard her say "Ok give me just a minute!!!"

Mr Tubbylove then sat and watched as Mama Manda ran around trying to find clothes. The maintenance men said "Oh we've got another emergency we'll be right back!" So Mama Manda finished getting dressed and took out Sister Harriet for her morning stroll.

When they came back from their stroll, Mama Manda put Sister Harriet in the bedroom and gave her her breakfast. Mr Tubbylove wondered why, Sister Harriet had been a good girl as far as he could tell.

Later, the maintenance men came back and took over Mr. Tubbylove's favorite place in the apartment, the bathtub. Mr Tubbylove had to supervise these so called "maintenance men" while they did horrible things to his beloved Tub. He saw as they took out the silver thing with the tab that he used to rest his paw on while he gets drinks from the slowly dripping other silver thing.

Then the men left and went into the Kitchen. Mr. Tubbylove had to follow to see what they could possibly be doing in the kitchen, after they tore up his lovely tub. He watched as they moved the big white Holder of Milk. Then watched as they cut a hole in the wall behind it.

Mr Tubbylove gave himself a bath and came and sat on Mama Mandas' lap for a while, those maintenance men got boring. All of a sudden they both got up and left!! "Time to investigate" thought Mr Tubbylove and he leapt off Mama Manda's lap. When he got back to the kitchen he found the Holder of Milk to be back in place, then he went to check on his beloved tub. "Still a mess" he thought and disgustedly left to get something to eat.

The Men came back and moved the Holder of Milk again and started banging and crashing which scared Mr Tubbylove and he found comfort once again on Mama Manda's lap, where he purred and fell asleep.
But when the Men went back to the bathroom he got up to see if they were fixing what they'd done to his tub.

That was the last time Mama Manda saw Mr Tubbylove for a while. She figured he found a darker quiet place to sleep. Then the maintenance men started leaving for lunch, and Mama Manda couldn't find Mr Tubbylove anywhere. He wouldn't come when she called, and she couldn't find him in any of his usual hiding places.

Mama Manda and Papa Travis started searching for him all over. Then they went outside and called him over and over. Then Papa Travis sadly had to leave to go to class so Mama Manda went back inside and called for Mr Tubbylove again.

This time she heard him calling back. "Meow meeeeooowww" Mr Tubbylove said. He was so scared!!! "I hear you Mr Tubbylove," said Mama Manda, "I'll go see if I can get you from the downstairs neighbor, ok?"
"meow!" Was all Mr Tubbylove could say.

Downstairs Mama Manda asked the neighbor, "Have you seen my cat?" she paused and heard Mr Tubbylove meowing. "Can you hear him?" she asked the neighbor. He was on the phone and said "No. But I'll keep my eye out for him."

Mama Manda went back upstairs. She could still hear Mr Tubbylove meowing. She made the decision to move the fridge, it slid very easily.
Now she could see the hole in the wall and the bathtub of the apartment downstairs. She also saw the hole into the eves of the building and could hear Mr Tubbylove more clearly. Then she saw him walking around in the dim light!!!

"Hurray!!!" thought Mama Manda. "Ok Mr Tubbylove, here I am come see me!" she said. "Meow" Said Mr Tubbylove, he couldn't find a way out.
"Come on, you got in there and you can get out" Mama Manda reassured Mr Tubbylove.

"Meow" he said again, he was scared . Mama Manda said "Don't worry I'm here, come on and try." Mr Tubbylove stood up on his hind feet and looked to see where he could jump up. The second place had something he could pull himself up with so he did!!!

"Yea!! Mr Tubbylove you're safe!!! But oh goodness your feet are all dusty!!" exclaimed Mama Manda.

Mr Tubbylove looked back from where he came from, it was dark and smelled weird. Brother Scamper came over to make sure Mr Tubbylove was ok and then had to investigate the site himself. Mama Manda was too quick though and scooped up both cats. She took them to the bedroom where a lonely Sister Harriet had been wondering what she had done to deserve this punishment. She looked up as Mama Manda with Mr Tubbylove and Brother Scamper tucked under her arms, entered the room.

Now they were all together and Sister Harriet couldn't be happier!! Mr Tubbylove wanted to go back to the hole in the wall behind the Holder of Milk and explore some more. He knew now that Mama Manda would save him if he got lost in there again.

To keep her much loved pets safe, Mama Manda left them all in the bedroom and went to the kitchen to make herself some lunch. "What a busy day" Mama Manda thought, as she sat down with her sandwich and large glass of cold yummy Milk!!

Infomercail/Predictions for the year ahead

Are you having money woes? Does your life seem like it's spiraling in nothingness? Do you have someone in your life telling you it's going ot be ok?

If not than here I am!!! I was depressed about stuff ealier this month. So hopefully I've had my January blahs and won't have to deal with them till next year. I know several people who are having money troubles right now, if fact I'm one of them. Strange thing though, I'm not that worried about them. "You must not be as bad off as me," I hear you saying. But are you really that bad off?

Can things get any worse??? OF COURSE THEY CAN!!! But they won't. I have a good feeling that things are going to work out for the best.

Ok enough of the infomercail. Truth is I am a bit freaked out about stuff but it's not getting me down. We'll all get taxes back soon, or most of us will, and that'll help with our shortages now.

This is going to be a good year, I forsee perhaps two weddings this year....I know one is happening for sure (winkwink Jessica and Matt) but there are a few cousins out there who might be taking the plunge. There is going to be a most glorious birth of a babe beyond compare or two this year....maybe it'll be my Jack? Ask me about that glorious birth part when I'm in labor sometime in late May early June...

There will be a move or two out of Savannah to parts unknown to me now.
People will be hired for well paying jobs in the fields people enjoy most.
I think it'll raina few times this year, maybe a hurricane or two, nothng bad like last year (That might just be wishful thinking though).

I'm going to eat something that tastes really really good sometime this summer. That's a weird one huh?

Anyway things are going to look up guys. Think about happy stuff, don't dwell on the bad stuff.

This is quite a silly post, hope it brought a smile to your face!!!
I'm hungry again so I'm gonna go eat!

Strange Rant

You know, I've known for quite a while now that I'm going to have a baby. I've known for a month that that baby is going to be a boy. It's not just hitting me now that this is all happening to me, I just really thought about it last night.

Travis asked me while we were brushing our teeth, "Is it weird to know you have a human being growing inside you?" I think I said "No, not really" right away. Then I elaborated....I won't regale you on that cause it was garbled by the toothbrush. However, I thought about it more and more after we had crawled into bed and turned out the lights.

I feel like I've been pregnant for a long time, even before I was pregnant. I feel like this is just the way it's supposed to be. I do think it's weird how Jack feels sometimes, like a squirmy alien at times, but other times I know what he's doing.

Being pregnant has been something I've wanted for a loooooong time. No, at first it wasn't what I expected, being sick constantly for a few months was not fun. Even Mom and Paige say they weren't as sick as I was but I wouldn't trade it....Well unless I knew the outcome would be the same.
It feels completely natural for me. I keep thinking about how happy I'll be when Jack is born, I'll tell him I've been waiting and waiting for him for so long.

I'm sure I'll cry. At least I think I will. I thought I'd cry at my wedding but I didn't. I was so happy but still I didn't cry. I felt like we had been married and this was just a performance. Maybe it'll be the same when Jack is born.

I feel more connected to all things now. Maybe that's just my hormones. I felt compelled to buy Diapers the other day. Nesting perhaps?

I'm hungry......

Belly shots!!!

Finally Finally we got some belly shots done. Travis had some homework involving a still life and since he had the camera out I asked if he wanted to get some shot of my belly. So here they are!!

We'll be getting more pictures of Jack at our next visit, they need to check to make sure his lip and heart have formed correctly, I'll see if we can get another picture of his bits to confirm the "it's a boy" proclamation, see if we can get a clearer picture for those of you who doubt. ;)

Anyway here my belly shots for Month 5!!! TA DA!!!!

He's a maniac MAAANIAC on the floor

and he's kicking like he's never kicked before!!! You can see my belly jiggle now with his kicks! I bet he's having fun in there, You'd think he's listening to some cool rock band or something!! Beastie Boys or Green day, he's boucing off the walls LOL

Cutting back the unneeded Crap

We've decided to cancel our Cable. It costs us about $50 a month so it'll be a big savings for us. We've been accumulating a bunch of baby stuff, which is strange because we haven't gone out and bought a lot of stuff. Stuff just keeps showing up. We aren't upset about it though!!

We are thinking about moving into our Two bedroom apartment in March over Trav's spring break. Then we'll have time to set stuff up and get thing organized before Jack trots into the picture. I want to paint but since we live in an apartment we may not be able to. I need to check with the managers, they may not mind.

They seem just as excited about our Jack as we are, they even invited us to have the baby shower in the "club house" it's where the fitness room and leasing office is but it's nice and comfy.

nothing else comes to mind to write on this post.

Warning long post, emotional rant about nothing!!

This is the earliest I've gotten up in a while. I always wake up, at least just a bit, when Travis is getting ready for work. As was the case this morning, I just couldn't get comfortable and fall back asleep after he kissed me goodbye. I was comfortable but not so that I could go back to sleep, and while I lay there willing myself to fall asleep again Jack started kicking me.

Not like his been kicking me, it was stronger. Can babies get stronger over night? I barely had to put any pressure on my belly to feel him kicking me from the outside, I'm betting if Travis had been home he would have been able to see. Jack is still going too!!!

I'm not tired either. Which is weird because I normally sleep till about 9 or 930. Perhaps today will be a super awesome day and Jack wanted me to get a head start? Most interesting.

Yesterday was not a good day for me. The night before I had made dinner for Travis and myself. I've been giving myself smaller portions because I've been getting fuller faster. By the time I got thru half of what I gave myself I was putting the rest back. I turned to leave the kitchen and started getting that old familiar feeling in my tummy.

Yep you guessed it! I barely made it to the bathroom. I threw up all I ate the second part of the day. Travis came running to make sure I was ok. And I was, I just felt like crap. All of a sudden I went from having an appetite and feeling fine, just a bit sleepy....To having a raging headache, NO desire to eat anything ever again, achy muscles and ugh.

I felt like I had had too much to drink, my head was spinning and my muscles felt all weird and weak. Travis put me to bed telling me I'd feel better once I went to sleep, he's such a sweetheart, but I didn't feel better.
My achyness reached an all time high and the spinning started getting worse.

I couldn't get comfortable and I kept moving around trying to find a more comfortable position, which is pretty hard when you can only sleep on your left side, which was bothering Travis's quality of sleep and he had to get up early to go to work.

I did finally get to sleep but I don't' know what time it was. I woke up at 928 the next morning feeling a little better.. I did get something to "eat" I made instant breakfast and sipped on it for a while, had a bowl of cereal about an hour later. Still felt like crap, and now I started crying at every little thing.
And crying and crying.

I tried taking a nap to see if that helped but I couldn't get comfy enough to fall asleep. Then when Travis got home from work he asked how I was feeling and I started crying again. I just jumped up and hugged him like I'd never let him go (which is a signal to him that I'm crying) he gently pulled himself away and tried to find out why I was crying.....

No reason. Just crying.....

Then I felt guilty for Travis coming home to find me a wreck. He started doing all the great things he always does when I'm like that, asking if he can get me anything, or if there's anything he can do for me to which I reply "No babe, just having you home is making me feel better."
I'm never sure if he believes me when I say that but I do.

He checked his mail then went to take a nap. I got up to go to the bathroom and saw how peaceful he looked taking his nap and thought I'd join him after my potty visit. When I went into the bedroom, I saw Tubby (travis's nap buddy....Tubby never naps with me), he too looked peaceful and happy.
I couldn't move Tubby he just looked to content. So I came back to the futon and laid down. I did fall asleep just as Travis was walking out after waking from his nap.

I called into work because I was still feeling really ill. I hadn't thrown up again but I felt terrible and hadn't gone a half an hour without crying over something. Travis didn't go to class, he had the assignment so it wasn't all that important for him to go. He got on the computer again for a bit, then got bored and came and laid down on the couch.

He was in a funk now too. So the two funky people sat on their seats and mulled in the funkiness.

When we both started getting bored and hungry, we started getting restless too. I said I wanted to get this super cool bathroom stuff from Sears for Jacks bathroom, thinking about this weekend because we both have it off.
Travis said "Ok lets go!!" Remembering I had called into work, I felt bad, like maybe we shouldn't. I got up and started getting ready.

We made our way there, talking about our funk. It was fun picking out stuff for the baby. We used giftcards from Paige and Theron, Mom and Dad to get the stuff. A turtle soap dish, a fish toothbrush holder, a seahorse soap dispenser, and then a Nemo bathmat. Oh yea and the matching shower curtain. We also got Ferris Bueler on DVD too.

This greatly improved both our moods, I was still feeling weak, a bit lightheaded but better. Then Travis asked me if I was getting hungry, which I was but where to eat? I didn't want fast food or anything heavy. So where did we decide to go? SONIC!!! For corndogs and rootbeer!!!

Oh never in my life have I tasted anything so YUMMY!!! There are very few things I've tasted in my life that has made me feel happy, but those corndogs!!! OMG!!! We both sat there enjoying our dogs and the conversation turned to happier things.

Driving home I said "I think we should get rid of cable, and if we can get rid of the phone if it doesn't mess up having internet." Travis thought it was a great idea, and we are going to look into that today and tomorrow.
We watch too much TV anyway. Plus dropping both of those bills will make up the monthly mullah we need to get into the two bedroom apartment we'll need in a few months. Our pile of baby stuff is growing, it makes us both smile when we see it.

Life is weird.

We went to sleep late last night almost 12. Jack was a kicking fool after the corndogs and rootbeet, and he was still going as I lay there thinking what a great night. We fell asleep, me wrapped around my pillows and Travis wrapped around me, his hand on my belly. I love cuddling!

I woke up when he was getting ready for work. I feel great today! I feel like something good is going to happen. I'm going to get some cereal....Sorry for the long post....This is the most diary like post I've made.....I just want to remember the day I guess..........Oh yea cereal!!

Jacks First Impression

Here on the left is Jack doing his best impression of a favorite celebrity of mine in childhood. The bright white line is his arm reaching down holding his twig and berries. Then you can see above his eye his hand is in a fist.

"See Mommy, just like Michael Jackson!!!

On the left side of the picture you can see his knee joints. One of them is very clear the other is kind of mottled by his belly.

In the top pic, you see Jack doing his best "V baby" impression. Looks like he's saluting too, that's kinda scary...In other picture it looks like he's scratching his head. His other hand looks to be resting on his belly.

Already soooo cute!!! I'm so excited about things to come!!!

HEEEEEREEEE'S JACK!!!

Ok what you are looking at is the first ever picture of Jack in all his naked glory! The arrows are on his leg pointing up to his wee little wangwang. The round part of course are the balls (actually, the scrotum, the balls won't descend till later).

The little pointy part is the tip of his dingaling.

I'm having trouble uploading the rest of the pictures so I can email them to people later. I need to get ready for work now though....

More to come!!!

The pictures should be up today!!

The long awaited picture showing my sons tallywhacker will be posted today!!! I must warn those with sensitivity to size, don't let Travis tell you that his leg is his manhood. The picture we have is most of baby balls with a little peak of tallywhacker. The first glimpse Trav and I got was very obvious, and since he was moving when the pictures were taken, the tech just missed to best shot.

We don't' think we could be making a mistake as to his gender form what we saw, anything is possible but it's a girl.......It's Jack no question.

I'm betting we'll get some excellent picture of Jack doing his best impression of his favorite fountains. Maybe we'll have comparison photos for you to compare.

We will have more pictures taken in a few weeks, maybe we'll get a better picture of his twig and berries. But those pictures we do have will be up today!!!

What a crazy rollercoster ride!

Well yesterday was weird. It was a good day, I went out with Jessica and Lisa to see if we could find our bridesmaids dresses. Only one store was open and it didn't have but four dresses from the designer we were looking for, Eden Bridals, and none of them were maternity or the color we were looking for, Platinum.

We looked at some other dresses, that were platinum and it's a lot brighter than I thought it was going to be. Our computer screen is dark so it's hard to tell looking online.

ANYWAY, after that we all went out to dinner with our husbands, or in Jessica's case her future husband. They look great together, very happy.

On the way to the restaurant, I was thinking about he birth of my son. Imagining how wonderful it's going to be to see him and hold him, and I almost started crying.

I was sad for the whole of dinner. Lost my appetite. Little Trav, Lisa's son, was excited and over tired and acting accordingly as any two year old would do. I felt bad for him though. Watching him was making me tired too.

After dinner Jessica and I went to Target. She had been there a while ago and saw the CUTEST ocean stuff for the baby's room. AND it was all on sale!! For a dollar! We got a few things, then went to look at the Christmas stuff on sale.

It was nice to get out and shop, Thanks Jessica!!!!

SO an up and down day. Today is feeling better though. Jack is kicking away and what a way to affirm life? I kick in the gut from your kid is a great reminder isn't it? Just wait till he's here!!!

Further suggestions for Jacks name

Another suggestion from Uncle Lee, infamous suggester of Way Cool Gentry, gave me a girls name that I couldn't remember till I found the napkin I wrote everyone's suggestion on at Cajun Charlies this past Boxing day (it's a Canadian holiday, the day after Christmas).

This time his suggestion was a girls name, Rickina Lee. Then the conversation turned to girls names all around the table....

Granny Donna said she liked the name Pippa for a girl.

She also said she like Plexico. The story behind Plexico, so you all don't think we're crazy....There is a football player named Plaxico Burres, and just thru joking conversation Granny D said she thought we should name our son Plaxico if we ever had one (this was before we got pregnant) His mom laughed and said that was a great name!!! Travis later mentioned it to me, and I said it sounded like a mouthwash. A few minutes later Travis says "What about Plexico?" I waited a minute wondering if this was a joke or if he really liked the name, then said "Sounds like a gas station chain."
He was joking.

Thanks for all the suggestions guys, we'll save 'em up for the next one whenever they grace our presence!!

Sorry folks!

Much to the sha-grin of some family members the names they suggested weren't used. I've got to admit some of them were very catchy!! Alas it was very hard to select the name we did.....

We had the obligatory "name it after one the patriarchs" suggestions.
Then we had the Aunts and Uncles weighing in on names they liked:

Way (first name) Cool (middle name). Way Cool Gentry?....Really how cool is that!!! But our kid might be a nerd, couldn't risk that.

Grandma J says it's a classic name....Not usual. I think she was wondering where the "Ladd" was.
Grandpa J wonders why we went for Jack instead of Jackson....It's a bit too Steel magnolias.
Aunt Paige says spell his name Jacques as a nod to his Cajun background......I don't know if that's coonass enough??
What do you all think?

(those of you who might be offended by the Coonass remark, I have permission from all the family to consider myself coonass, so it's not a derogatory remark ;) )

Might be too close to the oddly spelled uniquely named kids of today can anyone remember lemonjello?....ANYWAY

The way we came up with his name was simple, we had the hardest time deciding on any boys names, the names I liked were all to "froo froo-y" as Travis likes to say. All of his recommendations I couldn't take seriously. So the one name we both agreed on stuck.
(Is Sirius froo froo-y? Really?) and (Plexico? You've got to be joking!)
Then we started playing around with the middle names, Ladd and any others. Again it's what stuck.

My only rule was that one of our kids has to have Ladd as the middle name. We decided that since we didn't give Jack this monicker, our next will be dubbed Ladd which ever it may be boy or girl. Jack Ladd Gentry does sound nice though....Jack Robert Gentry sounds better.

I was informed by one of my cousins that Jack was not a name they had picked out for their next little one, so good for us...Otherwise they would have demanded we change our little boys name ; ) Phew! Good thing too cause we couldn't really have a Sirius Plexico Gentry running around.

Members from all sides of the family would hunt us down and shoot us!!

Well it's official!!!

I won't hold you all in anymore suspense. After all I was at the doctors office for hours and hours it seems. Just for the doctor to tell me the sex, which we already knew but she had to tell us for it to be official I guess.

As it was I had to go to the Chiropractor after, and we had to show everyone the pictures there. So yep, now we know the sex of the baby!!!










!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IT'S A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!










YEA!!!! His name is Jack Robert Gentry. Sorry I can't put pictures up I can't get the scanner to work!! I'll get the proud papa on that when he gets home tonight at around 830!!!

Ok now everyone knows!!!

Ok what's this all about?

I been burping ever since I ate this morning. No not heartburn, not acid indigestion. Just burping. Regular burps, juice burps, burps that taste like something I ate 10 hours ago. What's this all about? I've taken rolaids soft chew (they are good!!) and all they do is make it easier to burp....

((I forgot to mention in my delirium of baby happiness, that while we were in Houston we were unable to see our friend Suz. Hey Suz! Sorry we didn't get see you while we were there. I never got your email, and the only phone number I had for you was for the studio and I wasn't sure you still worked there. I couldn't remember which museum you worked at either. I'm so sorry!!!! Maybe you could make it out for my baby shower? I don't' know when it is yet but Jessica is planning it so I'll let her know I want you to be invited. I'm thinking sometime in March or February....Again I don't know exactly.....ANYWAY I love you and I really did want to see you...As it was I was sick for the last couple of days we were there, I just took it easy.))

THAT's another thing!!!! Why am I still throwing up? Mind you, I'm not throwing up multiple times a day but every couple of days I'm throwing up!! Isn't this supposed to be over now? I still have days where I don't want to eat anything, and if I do I feel horrible afterward until I throw up!!! ARG!! I always feel better after though, atleast better than I felt before I threw up.....I feel better most of the time now. I have many more days where I don't feel sick at all, so that's cool!

Perhaps the lack of heartburn, or acid indigestion indicates that our baby will be bald at birth, or just a peach fuzzy baby? Just an old wives tale? You tell me. It's late I'm tired and I keep burping, maybe if I go to bed it'll stop? Maybe it'll get worse..Who knows

today's over...2 days till we find whether cosmo is a boy or girl HEE HEE

Vacation and Family

What a wonderful time!!! Travis, Jessica, the baby, and I all drove to Houston for Christmas and back. It was a great trip!!! We spent all our time with the folks and watched movies and went shopping.....Jessica got her wedding dress (on our next to last day there) and Travis and I FINALLY registered for our baby stuff.

We are registered at www.babiesrus.com, the due date is June 8th....I think that's all you need to know...And maybe my email address moosejoose@bellsouth.net We found the perfect bedding set!! All of the accessories are super cool too. We found a crib we both liked and wasn't too expensive. And other stuff...

we got other stuff from people for Christmas, a few onesies and some stuffies. Our friends Lisa and Kevin gave us a 30pc grooming set (comes with an aspirator, fingernail clippers, brush, comb, all that jazz) a finding nemo blanket, and a bathing kit (with shampoo lotion and other stuff.)

The babies room is going to be decked out in an underwater ocean theme. Lots of stuff we have so far is finding nemo but it doesn't have to be finding nemo stuff. So long as it isn't too cartoony or goofy looking we'll love it, If you check out the registry you'll see what we've got and anything you see that you just HAVE to get us, you'll see what we are looking for.

Also the count down has begun!!! It's three days till we go to see if our little cosmo is a boy or girl!!!! We are so excited, and as soon as we know we'll let you all know the name we've chosen. Our appointment is at 930 and we'll have an update as soon as we can after that. I do go see the chiropractor later that day so if it happens to be a long appointment at the OB/GYN it might be a while before I get the update posted. We will be calling the grandmothers to tell them the news so if you just can't wait...Call them!!! HEE HEEE

Fridays the day, who's more excited??? What do you think we're having?